..journal..

Blog EntryborborygmiAug 20, '08 9:37 AM
for everyone
i can hear you.
food.lunch.echo.echo.
no breakfast, just milo.

i can hear you.
getting hyperactive.
irresistitible. irresistible.
not my fault.

i can hear you.
toooot. 10:27am
break.break.break.
10:42am.toink.

i can't hear you.

sugpon teph.. in..

teph:
pagkat sa iyo lamang..
umiikot ang buhay ko..
anti-diarrheals..
antibiotics..
lingin na ulo ko..
oh, calvin chen..

in:
laway agi ko...ko...ko...
o...o...o...
la ko masulat...lat...lat...
ehe...he...he...
natuyo ko...o...o...o...
kinanlan ko maglose weight...8...8...8...
mapatay nko...o...o...
kahapo mag -echo hahaha...
*deep breath*

teph:
go gepay!! go, yo, yo!



Blog Entryendorsing OR, receiving OBAug 3, '08 8:57 AM
for everyone

caring for people experiencing surgery is a challenging and gratifying specialty. operations that were once considered last-resort measures are now termed routine, just like appendectomy.

in order to have a smooth sailing operation, the surgical team should coordinate for the welfare (as usual) and safety of person undergoing surgery. and as a member, i should have the quality of what a scrub/circulating student nurse has.

1. no stress, no stress, no stress. yes. this is needed to maintain the sterility of the field. can't connect? review the manifestations of a person experiencing stress. a single drop of your sweat to a sterile field will contaminate it. lucky for you if you wont be caught by your C.I. , or else "miss tadifa, please prepare your IR slip" haha. OA! so guys, be as healthy as possible. all of us must cope with a constant mix of stressful events, from bitter coffee at dawn to unresolved problems at dusk.

2. made from
JAPAN is restricted. actually, i "was" made from japan for my first exposure in  OR. haha. gakurog ko bai. as an assistant to the surgeon, you should be quick and alert. you have to clip the suture (daw nylon) into the kelly curve (clamp nga daw gunting) for a matter of seconds. but if your hands tremble and cant shoot it out, better scrub out and never look the nurse on duty if you dont want to see a dragon in white uniform. haha. wooot.

3.initiative. if you want to impress your C.I., take the first steps in any undertaking. this is applicable if you already know the routine of the opearion. taking the lead saves time and the saliva of your C.I. since she doesnt need to command you to do such things,

in 9 days of working in the operating room, there's a possibility that i will have my specialty in assisting the surgeons. woot. nami pa gd tane kung ara ang scrub nurse, c JEFF! haha. rehu pa kami name. nyc one. mkarelate lng ni ang mga grupmatyes koh.

after those duty days in the or, after wearing the ever-comfy scrub suits, i am now suffering wearing my stockings. katol. hmp! go, go, go na sa
OB.

more ang periheat, medications and charting.
dugangan pa sang IV regulation, assessments, health teachings.
plus i have two patients. thank GOD, he really guided me through out the duty.
i've managed my time well.
advise ko lng: Prayers really work! promise.


Blog Entrycp not in distressJul 24, '08 10:32 AM
for everyone
He balances everything. and this is it. this is my day! the start of my 365 better days. wee!

im so happy. thank God! nakay-o cp ko. pati ang battery nag-andar pah.

the only solution: let it dry!

i didnt expect that it wil still function after what happened. nalunod man siya ya daan sa baha. my cellphone is a survivor too. ahm. by the way, we are not victims of typhoon frank. we are survivors! wee. applause please. i learned this from my clinical instructor.

things always look brighter in the morning. and remember this, every dog has its day!

Blog Entryburry me aliveJul 14, '08 8:13 AM
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Today has not been good. Nope, I did not wake up on the wrong side of the bed.

i went to school so fresh: wet pony tailed hair, cool green colored bag and new fitted school shoes. stress free!

but when i stepped the grounds of the nursing building (formal), the not-so-good day started.

first item: yash told me there will be a test about ma'am duran's lecture. gawd. i haven't studied. i haven't even peeked a single word from my notes. plus i don't have notes. wahat?

second item: recess time. i should be happy for this but it seems that my hormones responsible for my red day is active. i'll have sandwich for my recess. urrrgh. i badly need it..

third item: aw! my feet. obviously, its because of my shoes. damn, i'll never wear those shoes again. wait. what will i wear? i already gave my old shoes to my little sister. aargh!

fourth item: "wrong room my dear" i forgot that shyne's group will have a power point presentation so our class was transferred at QH204. AW again for my feet.

fifth item: my unknown nursing little brother. tomorrow is the deadline for the pictures. so we need to meet for us to have no sanctions from the nursing student council. I DON'T WANT TO CLEAN THE REST ROOM! i texted and waited for the reply. HELLO?! Who will reply to you dimwit? you got the wrong number!

sixth item: i decided to go home. i went ahead from my friends since i'm the only one who hasn't found my long lost little bro. i hear a shout from pauline. her eyes looking to my skirt. got it. it's really a literal red day for my skirt. nice! it's time for my white uniform to have some little art.


this is certainly not my day.
oh well, perhaps the next 365 days may be a little better.

Blog Entryi was wrongJul 10, '08 7:44 AM
for everyone
mutti went to our capping and candlelighting ceremony.
weee.
so happy.



"sorry mama. love you."

Blog Entryalone in the processionalJul 9, '08 9:11 AM
for everyone
ancestors hear my prayer.

shut up!

you don't want to attend the capping and candlelighting? FINE!

let the whole world know that i have parents who's not proud of me. FINE!

after the CC, i'll just go home as if nothing special happened.

and oh, batchmates, is CC really special?

Blog Entrygepsky's missingJun 26, '08 5:43 AM
for everyone

wow. popular na ko sa batch ko yah.

missing daw ako. worse, dedo na!

it was saturday. it rained. ahm. its not only rain, its a storm. mutti told me not to go but i insisted coz knowing wvsu-con, the class is not considered a free day if it will not be declared by the administration. teh nagkdto ko ya sa skul eh. complete uniform with my chn bag and black knapsack. take note: with no umbrella! kundi basa. jangaers gd.

pag-abot sa skul, gnhmbl sang mga c.i. nga magpululi na kami kay grabe na ang ulan. teh, kundi mango gd. certified dimwit. d naman ko kapuli kay d nakaagi ang mga jip kay ang dalan baha na.

i was just lucky when nessa invited me to stay at their house. nakatulog ko to sang nami. du naglaway pa ko gane. jahe lng, gnpukaw kami ni nene. hmm. oa si nene ha. may baha na kuno. pero kami gale ang OA sa katulog. gabaha na gd mn. huhu. GOD help us.

i was just not lucky to be saved by the rescuers, but i was very blessed that day. thank God, la NYA gd kami pabay-an.

sunday: it's my rest day. tudo ang tulog. la ko daan katulog sang sat, du natrauma gd tana ako. sno mn ayhan ndi.

monday-tuesday: gisa session sa blay, init2.

wednesday: i went to school. wow. damu concerned sa akon. pero du oa na cla ha. may kupo kupo pah. gn-ask ko sila eh. kay gale may naglpta na nga missing ako. there's a news that a girl was trapped sa petalsville kag gn assume nila nga ako toh. ayus eh. i thought missing lng ko sa blay. hay.

so friends, you need not to worry. im here. yih. d nyo na lng ko gling macontact. la telepono. huhu.


Blog Entrychn: don't bring me downJun 20, '08 8:57 AM
for everyone
this is such an exhausting day. i dont know why i feel so used up even though we only did some assessments and chores with minimal use of energy. and to think, we only used our butt to sit in our respective jeepneys to go to our respective house assignments.

but thinking of the situation of the familty assigned to us, conscience lingered my mind. i should fight for this (fight for sleepiness so that i  could finish this requirement ) because with the current status  of my client, they still strive inspite of the deprivation of their needs.

at first, i was hesitant to take the family assigned to us because you need first to do some balancing skills before you could  into their house. but since, none of my groupmates volunteered,  paolo and i agreed to take the challenge. thanks God! neither of us slipped on a muddy field.

arriving safe, we then build rapport to our client by greeting them and introducing ourselves. our assessment wen smoothly since nang cathereine (only an alias) cooperated with us. the only problem i noticed with myself is how i approach and question nang cath. sometimes, i run out of words, sometimes i dont know how to ask questions that are something personal. i find it also difficult translating some scientific orr english words to hiligaynon. but as we converse longer, the feeling of awkwardness gradually vanished. after the assessment, we did dome chores like washing the dishes, folding the clothes, and sweeping the floor. through that, we had the opportunity to observe their sanitary practices and way of living. and one major problem i identified is their poor environmental condition. there could also be some risks  for accidents because of the slippery path.

***whoops! it seems that my eyelids cant stand and resist anymore the pull of gravity. they're starting to give up. they'll just sleep and rest now and just wait for tomorrow's bell so that they could wake up and continue the challenge in community health nursing. let me just end this with a realization: i thank GOD because He gave me a good conditioned house or rather home with a caring and supportive family on it despite the many problems i am facing now. zZzZZz (this is not a bee's sound) -.-

Blog Entrynot all are correctJun 17, '08 7:13 AM
for everyone

Looking back during high school years, I have this teacher who I admire most. In one glance at her, you wouldn't think that she has that impressing brain because she was not gifted with an impressing height. :)


During our first lecture, I thought that she will be another boring teacher just like what other physics teachers are. But she proved me wrong. I enjoyed her class especially when she give activities like games and mind boggling exercises. She reached my expectations making me like her. She makes learning fun and exciting. She helps us find areas of interest to explore and master. She helps us see new things as stimulating challenges rather than dreaded obstacles.


But one thing that I don't like about her is the way she treat us students. It's just that fairness is not in the air. She only points out her “favorite” students. I believe that teachers should give equal chances to her learners, giving each student the chance to recite so that she could give fair grades. There should be an honest communication between the students and the teacher. Another violation to the “hallmarks” of good teaching that I noted is her unwillingness to commit her error. I know that she's an intellectual mentor but it doesn't mean that she couldn't commit lapses. It's very obvious but, still, pride doesn't want to lose the competition.


But despite all that, I feel proud to be one of her students. I am a part of her, and she was a part of my growth that molded me to be a good student.


Blog Entryfriends in guimarasJun 8, '08 3:14 AM
for everyone

leah - KILL JOY EVER. starting from her get up to the overnight thing. she didn't even swim. reason: she had her period that time.OKAY! so what did she do? take pictures. our official photographer. hehe. peace leahlei. so that the next time we will have a "reunion" you'll never be our photographer again. but lei, thanks for the lechon manok. hehe. namit ang gravy. mmmm. if i didn't hug, kiss or hampas2 you that doesnt mean that i dont care you're here. im just too shy to show how i missed you. yih. shy kuno. indi lng gd ko ya daan sweet. toinx.

nikki - FOREVER DRAMA QUEEN. on how she asked permission to her mother just to let her go to our "reunion", its all drama. we bowled over her with a personalized scrapbook. and we succeed, she cried. just a few tears. she haven't said a word, du nakatulon paka eh. haha. peace! mmm. early bird mn gle. second ako. wehe. a medal for both of us.

ella - THE FIRE WOMAN. sunog. hehe. ginsunog nya ang isda. not only the fish but also some important stuffs. memorable stuffs. but, hey! congratulations ellalyn. you did it. dont cover it up girl. just show what you feel. if you need a big fire, we'll make you one. we will just contact some certified fireman, incase.

esor - THE NON-REPEATING PARROT. 1 bottle of RH and a fresh milk, solve. you'll enjoy listening how esor enumerates her classmates, alphabetically and completely. no joke! saulo ya pa ang sang elemtary classmates nya. tsk. what a talent. haha. first time sya nag bring up sang topic about her love life sa akon. yih. just the two of us. moments. moments. she shared also some of her principles and future plans. we had a serious mode that night. she chirped like i dont have a mouth. haha. peace.

mulan - CERTIFIED HOTKIKAY. the only one who dressed a sleveless top. nax! skin tone pa ha. cmon. sa mga pictures nya, daw pang fhm cover ang dating. muna ka sexy c mumu. no one beats our model. wehe. hot na hot. dont you dare touch her, or else, youll get a 3rd degree burn except her certified friends.

irwin - THE CLOWN. du la gd ceryoso sa iya ah. ginapatulan pati di nya kilala. hanep! but it was fun to be with him. a gale of laughter that shouldnt be missed.

Blog Entryi'm jealous, is it bad?May 22, '08 8:56 AM
for everyone
just this day, i've read text messages from you. sweet and lovely. but it's not for me. i'm just reading it from my friend's cellphone. and she's your friend too. of course! maybe your close friend, very close friend. or maybe you already consider her as your only best friend.

it hurts. i thought you were only mine. and i thought you consider me the same way, too. the way you text her compared to me is different. there's really a big difference. obvious. i can feel that you enjoy more when wou're with her. the words you use to chat with her, it seems happier.


i envy her like how i envy a child licking her favorite falovored ice cream. i wanted to cry. but i tried to lighten every muscle in my body and attempts, by sheer will, to force the tears back into their ducts.


oh please. don't think again that i'm just being in a shallow mind. that i'm being childish. every jealous girl is inside every woman no matter how old she gets.


i hate this day. just this day. coz maybe tomorrow, it could be me in her. just maybe.

Blog Entry5 reasons why i don't want to be at homeApr 19, '08 1:52 AM
for everyone
1. i dont want to be with my brother. he makes me his punching bag. he doesn't treat me as his sister. counting all the bruises he made is how much i hate him. i feel resentment at being treated unfairly.

2. to escape problems. i feel useless. i can't help solve the problems of my parents. i even make it worse. an obsolete person, that is the word.

3. i feel oblige to work household chores. i mean kung wala ko may gnaubra, matyag ko kigan na ko ni mutti. i wanted to feel comfortable. i feel anxious when i'm idle.

4. booooooring. listening to radio is my sole entertainment. good if i have books to read and load so i can txt.

5. i seem to be silent. i don't like the person in me. my story at home had a semblance of truth but it was really false.


--- i wanted to be free from home. i wanted to wander around but i'm afraid to get lost. ---

Blog Entrymy ten namesApr 15, '08 9:35 AM
for everyone

got this from jofer. gusto ko mn mbl-an akon other names. hehe.


1.Real Name:
GEPHANEE TADIFA


2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:
(first four letters of your name, plus zzie)

gephzzie (ayus! haha. du zombie.)

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME:
(fav color and fav animal)

bluedog (lapit na lng tane nga maging bulldog)

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:
(middle name, and current street)

castañeda hilado (waay chansa magsikat)

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:
(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of mom's name)

tadgeglo (haha, uneek bah)

6. SUPERHERO NAME:
(2nd favorite color, favorite drink)

green coke (anu mani man. walang kadating dating. green coke to the rescue)

7. IRAQI NAME:
(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms middle name, 3rd letter of your dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, last letter of your moms first name)

edtapja (haha, du iraqi name gd.)

8. MONUMENT NAME:
(fathers or mothers middle name)

japitana

9. GOTH NAME:
(3rd favorite color, and the name of one your pets)

blackpucca (haha, saja lamang)

10. SCREEN NAME:
(any of your TVs brand and your mom's middle name)

panasonic castañeda (nami po)

Blog Entryrandom things about gepskyApr 14, '08 9:04 AM
for everyone
proud to be a CHRISTIAN.

i love korean movies especially with romance, comedy, drama genre.
must-seen-movie: the classic and my sassy girl


i wanted to be an engineer but i'm taking a health science related course. NURSING. pro du accept ko namn sbng ah.

i still have a girl crush. my friends know her name. ahem. cnu gne ah? wehehe.

i love music but never nag-ambition to be a singer. hmm. slyt gali nagparangap man. pero waay gd chansa. mati na lng sang pne songs.

once a computer addict. ambot kung asta sbng.
it started when i'm in 1st year high school.
sympre manul manul gd kay d taga siyudad. wooot. i even skipped meals just to save money.

loyalista to friends and loved ones. ayeee.

i love BOB ONG books. saja gd ya ang alamat ng gubat bskan law-ay ang ending. hehe.kadugay sang masunod nga buk ah.

traffic is a nightmare for me. bal-an mo naman ang nursing life. gamay lng nga late, WARNING SLIP! especially kung c.i. mo si X. haha. d ba grupmates?

when i have nothing to do, i usually write the name of my crush in a one whole paper. asta mapuno. asta waay na guid masulatan. tapos na kumuson ko kag ihaboy. d gane gisi gision para la may makabasa! wooot.

my best bud describes me as mababaw ang luha. huhu. bingit gd mn koh. haha.

wala gakaon utan. wehehe. but i'm planning to start eating veges. nhadlok ko daan magtigualng nga masakiton.

1, 2, 3, x+y, 2x+y... i miss these what-you-call-x-and-y. huhu. lipatan ko na.
    thinking
    still thinking
    ...
    ..
    .
    after 10 years: dumuduman ko nah. VARIABLES. applause!

my first girl kiss is keissy. wahaha. hungod gd toh. d to sya accident. wahaha.
we mean it.

gnaorder pirme sa JD: BM (booooring)

prone to accidents kung upod ko prme c NIELSON DANE GUSTILO.
huh. isa ya lang katiklod, galuhod kana ya dayun sa highway. mahuy-an ka pa. hai hai.

don't like hot dog! sa BM, ang pirme mblin hot dog. kag cnu ang consumer?
wooot. tan tananan tanan. DANE GUSTILO. applause. ahehe. peace dane.

Blog Entryout of my friends, the..Apr 13, '08 10:24 AM
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shortest?                                                       keissy. peace kei.

tallest?                                                          dane. oohh. cnu pa haw?

loudest? pwede 3 ah                                   punky, yash, esor, roxan!

most quiet?                                                  du waay gd ah. shaila? haha

prettiest? pwede damu?                            esor, ella, jinky! ahaha

most likely to get put in jail?                     haha, cnu b? kc! haha

most likey to become president?             ahm, pauline? toinx. c paulo tabalina!

most shy?                                                     shaila agen? pau?

one youve known the longest?                 leah, yvonne groh

one youve known the least
ammout of time?
                                           hmm. ambot ah

most random?                                              most random mn.

most shy?                                                     nagliwat aw. c shaila gane. d gd mapatihan?

most athletic?                                             punky! mulan!

funniest?                                                       irwin, yash

best guy friend?                                           irwin and dane

best chick friend?                                        leahlei

one who would be a pirate?                      huh? ahm. punky? esor?

one who would be a ninja?                         c punky japon ah. kag c win

one who makes you laugh
the most?
                                                      pwede damu liwat? yash, irwin

one who could tell a secret to?                 leah, nikki


Blog Entryon boredomApr 6, '08 10:28 AM
for everyone
no classes.
well, i think it's time for me to do job hunting. just to break this monotony.
ahm. getting excited about this job thingy? at first yes (thinking of the money that i will earn)
but after all the impediments in passing my bio-data, i caved in. i think the job wasnt for me.

and now im stuck in here. doing my routines.
no tv just hearing on-again-off-again music.
summer should be exciting. but why suffer from this.

whew. kill boredom!




Blog EntryThe two of you are really connecting!Mar 31, '08 9:51 AM
for everyone
ur so nyc.i made all the efforts to let you know.
maybe its not enuf. but my frnds told me to break ur heart genlty. oooh. how?

ur so nyc. i told you words that may hurt you. aching, afflictive, agonizing. name it. how insenstive you are.

ur words are gentle. but why cant i appreciate it? its fretting me. some of my frnds pity you but why can't i feel so?

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